Deny
You are just a block of time,
contorting my perception of morality,
implanting indecision like eventually
a good thing could come from a bad idea like you.
You are just a fantasy,
a dream that vies for my attention
like a child in a full room.
But ,I cannot give you what you are asking for.
I disown your big brown eyes when they are begging,
in fact I deny you and all your little ploys for my affection
because I don’t need you.
I have not missed you, even once
I do not think of you as something I want
and I will not even entertain the notion of love.
See, how easy that was?
I have mastered the tough guise,
you do not know who you are messing with WOMAN.
You’ve got serpentine influence
and apples in your eyes when my stomach is rumbling
but even hunger can be denied.
God knows you are voluptuous and comfortable being noticed
but, I’ve got something you cannot poison.
I’ve got willpower and conviction.
You are just a bad habit and I can beat you into remission.
You are a virus,
the disorder of my brain and if they make pills for you
I will take them and you will go AWAY
before I surrender.
Do not flatter yourself, you have not affected me,
but infected through the airborne venom
that moves with your lips till it could not get farther from the truth.
Your heart is a shifting chameleon
that cannot pick a color or keep a lover.
Tell me, what are you so afraid of?
There are worse things than being alone,
that you will never know.
We are capable of things beyond belief, in the dark,
between bed sheets and blinking second thoughts.
And this is where I spend most of my time
getting caught with you,
the edited consequences and a cuticle left open
for what I’m supposed to be doing.
You’d be surprised how much we’d all have to hide
if anyone were to strike a match,
how much you’d deny like an involuntary reaction.
I was surprised at myself, just then.
I was surprised at you, mostly just hurt but,
it won’t happen again because you are just temptation
and I do not need you.
I have not missed you, even once.
I do not think of you as something I want
and I will not even entertain the notion of love
but you will never see how hard that was.
